This is my first post and im just gonna go straight to my thoughts.

I feel like we’re all looking for something….and trying to discover it and it might or might not be there. Some people are trying to disover their roots, some their purpose, some their state of zen, some their freedom, and some love…

Hmm love.

My Thoughts? well…marriage and love feel  so overrated these days. Especially overrated  in America..so played out in terms of what it is described as. To  me  its like just words and people saying what they don’t really mean. Sometimes it is but its so hard to tell. I shouldn’t know but what i  hear and see just from talking to people and observing… you just never know in today’s day and age. Love comes with commitment, trust and faith? Yet, divorce rates are so high in todays world. IS that was love is? People lose interest….sigh..i dont know  I just don’t know. We say we’re love, we think we’re in love. But sometimes you just have to be realistic. The media overexaggerates and does not capture what love really is because for every indiviudual its something different.  Unique. I think. The cookie cutter type of love that you see in this distorted media does not exist, neither do the girls. Sometimes we look but we dont see…..and then we miss a lot of things in between.  Some people just cant get over themselves and for others Its like they want themselves  to fail. And we put it on ourselves to just go on and find it or for it to find us. I’ve always said I want it to find me. Personally yeah im not a risk taker…cause I’m scared of being so badly hurt….but not taking risks its not really  living , its just existing….for the sake of something . so i prepare to change , if i find something that seems right to me im gonna go for it, i cant wait forever…..letting it find you and discovering it  comes hand in hand.

For me, all i need to know is that it is really possible for two people to be happy together forever[Juno] …nothing is perfect or set in stone. nothings carved into ice , i know that. Everything has its ups and downs..but so many people just leave or give up … and don’t accept others for their entirety. but i feel if people accept each other flaws not just couples but everyone then this world would be so much less chaotic. All i can say I’m so clueless as i should be at this age…but I don’t know it seems like adults cant even figure it out….and I cant say I’m scared of what it is. I’m actually very  curious. But i think maybe I’m just scared of falling too deep for it? i don’t know . i guess I’m just a little hesitant of what to expect from anyone at this point.